Home » Special Saturday | Giving Thanks in the Midst of Life’s Storms
It’s a little ironic to consider–giving thanks after new diagnosis rocks your world–but this week’s Special Saturday campaign asked what we were thankful for and the more I thought about it, the more I realized that I was truly thankful for an unexpected new diagnosis. I’m surprisingly even thankful for the older diagnoses as well–the Autism, Epilepsy, Cerebral Palsy, Axenfeld-Rieger Syndrome–all of them have made our family, made me, into the woman I am today.
Sometimes, even when aren’t expecting a diagnosis, you spend part of your life in limbo, waiting for the day that you understand more, can fix things. You think … if I only had the answers, the diagnosis, I’d know how to fix this. Sometimes, you never receive a firm diagnosis. Sometimes you don’t want the one you receive. And sometimes … you realize that the diagnosis doesn’t change as much as you thought it would.
But that new diagnosis, or the lack of one, means nothing if you don’t think about why you want it … do you want it as a reason to cling to the past–to blame circumstances or life, or God, for everything that has gone wrong…or do you want it as a chance to move forward?
The difference, my friends, is the ability to deal, to handle the stress.
My husband, after years of finding life a complex and difficult adventure at the best of times, finally received an unexpected diagnosis that was really years overdue–Cerebral Palsy.
Yes, Logan is diagnosed with CP as well; No, I don’t think this is a specific part of the rare syndrome all my guys share; Possibly, this is a chance to make some answers mean something … to move forward.
You see, my husband has been dealing with confusing symptoms and overall worsening of his health for years now, and no one could link all the little things together. He’s been told everything from “it’s all in your head” to “you don’t look like anything’s wrong with you.” And that wears on a person. Over the years he has struggled in the face of losing his job, losing his health, and being placed on disability. Through it all, I have stood by him … sometimes frustrated and sometimes overwhelmed, but I’ve been there.
So I feel this diagnosis almost as strongly as he does – including a sense of vindication toward the old neurologist how told my husband how ‘normal’ he looked, so that meant nothing was wrong with him. Seriously? I didn’t have to turn my geek on to know that an abnormal MRI meant something … I just didn’t have the training to know what. And we all know how much I love my research geekiness.
So, after thinking it over and under and sideways, I decided that this diagnosis in particular was one to be thankful for this year.
The more I thought about it, the more I decided that every diagnosis we have received over the years, from the dreaded Axenfeld-Rieger Syndrome to the misunderstood Epilepsy, has given our family a chance to embrace this life we’ve been given and to move forward.
I like to think that my imperfections, my desperation sometimes to deal with what seems overwhelming odds, means that I’m a bit more real, a bit more honest, when I talk with other parents dealing with their own storms in life. And we are all, all of us, dealing with some storm in our life, in our family — whether that be in the form of new diagnosis or nondisagnosis, or something unrelated to diagnosis at all.
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