A Rough Seizure Weekend Makes Writing & Blogging Harder to do
And then Logan had a rough seizure patch this weekend and all my work, and blogging, and writing, and fun plans all went out the window. I found it hard, depressing even, as I struggled to get back into the swing of writing yesterday afternoon (we canceled plans with my grandmother because we were concerned about Logan having further seizures).
Normally, parenting is a hit or miss kind of game anyway. You make plans and assume you can follow through on those plans because you and your child will be able to follow through on them. When you have a special needs child, though, their needs supersede most plans you make.
- You can’t go to your grandmother’s house because you need both parents at home in case your youngest, who is having seizures, might need to go to the ER.
- Your online work deadlines are filled with a bump here and a bump there because you had to be mom first and writer/editor second.
- Your blog has days and sometimes weeks at a time without a new post.
- You always consider new outings first in terms of seizure risk and not in terms of enjoyment.
- Family vacations are put on hold.
- Family reunions are put on hold.
So, if sometimes I am a little bitter about it, there’s a reason for that.
An amazing truth – Blogging is not the most important thing in my life
Neither is writing, and editing, or work, even, though it is nice to be able to pay the bills from time to time. So, rather than be bitter, rather than dwell on the weekend of work and blogging lost to me, I’ve decided it is far past time to come up with techniques for dealing with this.
I will always have children with special needs. But I am more than a wife and mother. I am also a writer, a blogger, an editor and assistant. So I also have responsibilities.
What to do? Does work and blogging still take a back seat?
Sometimes. My kids and their lives are my testimony when I grow old, not how much money I made or how many posts I was able to write a month on a blog in the middle of the world wide web. 🙂
But I have already taken steps to make that reality exist more peacefully with my need to, oh I don’t know, feed my family … find self-fulfillment … those lovely things that come from doing things other than being a wife and parent.
I joined the lovely blog challenge, the Ultimate Blog Challenge. Though I actually joined last week, the idea was the same: I wanted to bring some accountability to my blogging. Why? Writing is something I have always done for others. Blogging is something I do first for me, and then for others.
It makes me happy to write about things that might help other people, but more than that, it is a necessity, as a mom, as a special needs parent. I need to have something that is my own, that defines me and helps me. Something that challenges me beyond work I am paid to do for others.
I’m also striving to work ahead on my deadlines for other work commitments. I’m setting deadlines to give myself flexibility in case life throws me a curveball. And I am living my life without apology.
Being a wife and mother will always be more important than any words I might write, pictures I might share, social updates I might post … but being able to do those things will make me a better wife and mother, because I’ll be doing something for myself. Something to improve myself.
Being a blogger might not change the world, but it will change my world, one post at a time.
What challenges do you find yourself having to overcome as a blogger? As a mom?
What tips help you be a more productive blogger?
Are you a special needs blogger? May I challenge you to quickly hop over and consider joining the Ultimate Blogging Challenge with me? Or make the commitment and comment below. Let’s help each other keep blogging real!